Just about a year before, I found myself in a slightly unsettled place relationally – desiring to be in the right relationship and knowing that there was more purposed for me. I always believed that God did create two individuals uniquely for each other, and although it had not yet come, I still looked for it and evaluated relationships with that same anticipation.
I had made a personal affirmation that I no longer wanted to be in a relationship “just because” and that I wanted the next relationship I was in to lead to marriage. I began making this affirmation to God, knowing that I desired and deserved more…
I am a writer, one of expression, a list-maker and a natural “journalist” – I had always had journals, neat notebooks and greeting cards growing up and remembered, in particular, one journal that I’d asked my father for, which he purchased. With my affirmations in mind, I wrote a list on yellow memo paper of what I wanted in a spouse. I didn’t list facetious or petty things… I was serious about my worth and who God would place in my life. Atop the list? A MAN WHO LOVED GOD.
As I wrote more and more, I compiled a list of affirmations, folded the paper, put it in a decorative urn on my living room table, and periodically prayed to God with my affirmed desires, occasionally adding important intricacies to my list.
P.S., ‘A Storm, A Path, and A Love Story’ by Seneca & Kaye Howard